Even Now
If as I believe, either consciously or subconsciously what people want, (as Brendon Burchard says) is to know that they've 'really lived, really loved and really made a difference', the question is, how?
There are moments of clarity in life and there are moments of wonder. The moments of wonder outweigh clarity by about 98 to 2. This makes the —how— hard to discern.
A few years ago my sister and I were talking about 'the old days' and old memories.
Since her passing, those conversations are memories as well. I was one of the few left who remembered my sister.
Her childhood, her accomplishments. She did everything well, except...living. For some unknown reason I've become the keeper of her time.
I remember vividly the school assembly her senior year. I watched as she received award after award. Betty Crocker award for cooking, and one for her sewing and participation in the fashion show that year.
The school play that she helped write as well as performed in that year. Being the Homecoming Queen runner up, an honor she was semi-cheated out of, but handled gracefully.
She was on the softball team in the summer, and rode Western in horse shows. She was Grand Champion that year with many trophies and ribbons.
I remember it, but I went to live with our mom that year while she finished two years of higher education while living with our grandparents. Mom and I came back for her wedding and we all went our own way after that.
And her life fell apart and we never knew it. She was still perfect in our eyes, and for me she always will be, but...
"There is no ‘ever after’. There’s just the chaos of now." Seth Godin
But what we see as the 'chaos of now', is part of a bigger plan. In living our lives no matter what we know or how things shake out, as they say, I don't know what the future holds, but I do know who holds the future.
2 Corinthians 4:14 :Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you."
